Lulls and emptiness

A lull at  the moment , before the storm ( of work).  I used to drink to fill a lull. I used to drink to fill the emptiness inside me. Not any more.

This week I am so busy at the moment there are no lulls. When there are some I intend to view them as an experience of sober living and embrace whatever feeling I feel, and respond as needed probably with more sober treats ;) I need to experience life as it really is without modifying my reactions by using alcohol to numb my emotions.

Tomorrow is the start of a big weekend work event. A bit nervous that it will go well, that lots of people will come, that the weather stays dry.

Watching out for wine bitch to suggest a drink would help ... Fuck you wine bitch go away I'm not biting.