All getting even worse here.
I feel myself wavering. Oblivion via wine would be a relief at the moment but I am resisting as I am telling myself I would then have all this shit going on AND a hangover. And have to do a Day 1, again.
Trouble is, the level of stress here is so very high and sober treats don't have much savour in this kind of atmosphere.
Still here, still Sober Sarah though.
15/12/2016
12/12/2016
Cravings and other thoughts
Really struggling here.
Have had cravings and thoughts about drinking since a day out on Sat. Spent a lot of time talking to a good friend about addictions generally and afterwards realized I found it triggery.
Still going through a very stressful time at home. Tonight had terrible craving for cider. None in house so no idea why! Did a lot of distracting myself and used several sober treats and eventually went for a long soak in the bath then gave myself a manicure and pedicure. Nothing like wet nail varnish and a face pack to immobilize me :)
Feel overwhelmed by work stuff as well, under current family circumstances I just feel there is too much work for me to cope with. But I have to work, I am the person responsible for everything so there is no choice.
Day 85 done (if I don't count the lapse, do I? Don't I?) but despite the number of days passed I have been re listening to the first week's worth of lessons from Belle as Wolfie is shouting very loudly in my head that drinking two bottles of wine would be a fantastic idea. Fuck you Wolfie I'm not going to listen!
I recognise (before anyone comments) that lapsing and drinking a few days ago has set all this off, again.
Feeling sad probably all the stress of all the ongoing shite and some PAWS thrown in. Tomorrow is another day, thank goodness.
Have had cravings and thoughts about drinking since a day out on Sat. Spent a lot of time talking to a good friend about addictions generally and afterwards realized I found it triggery.
Still going through a very stressful time at home. Tonight had terrible craving for cider. None in house so no idea why! Did a lot of distracting myself and used several sober treats and eventually went for a long soak in the bath then gave myself a manicure and pedicure. Nothing like wet nail varnish and a face pack to immobilize me :)
Feel overwhelmed by work stuff as well, under current family circumstances I just feel there is too much work for me to cope with. But I have to work, I am the person responsible for everything so there is no choice.
Day 85 done (if I don't count the lapse, do I? Don't I?) but despite the number of days passed I have been re listening to the first week's worth of lessons from Belle as Wolfie is shouting very loudly in my head that drinking two bottles of wine would be a fantastic idea. Fuck you Wolfie I'm not going to listen!
I recognise (before anyone comments) that lapsing and drinking a few days ago has set all this off, again.
Feeling sad probably all the stress of all the ongoing shite and some PAWS thrown in. Tomorrow is another day, thank goodness.
09/12/2016
Struggling, a little
Its been very busy and very hard here. I let my sober care slip and lapsed on Day 76. But I recognized the signs of pre lapse, pulled back and used some of my
new sober tools; got back into my self care routine; cut back a bit on late
night working and went to bed to watch tv and read even if I couldn't sleep.
So, Day 82 today with sober treats,
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