Day 65 and some helpful links

If any one is interested, these are the blogs I find really really helpful

Belle's blog
Lucy's blog
Lily's blog
Mummy was a secret drinker blog
Jackie Elliot's The Wine Bitch blog


Other sites I love

Club Soda
Sober Sassy Life
Tired of thinking about drinking
Veronica Valli

plus all the blogs over on the right of this post :)

I can recommend Headspace for calming the brain chatter and also Andrew Johnson stop drinking  for, well , not drinking. You can find these as apps for Android or Apple products.
I've done lots of big chunks of sobriety before, lapsed and got straight back on it again with help of online support, Belle, Lucy, Sober Sassy Life and lots of other sober blogs.

Thinking about Day 1

Now I am feeling physically, mentally and emotionally so much better I have been re examining my early days of sobriety this time around.

I'm amazed (and concerned) at how quickly I went back to wanting more than one glass once I lapsed, and also how Day 1 - 4 were just as horrible as all the other times, even though I "only" drank for an evening each time then went back on sobriety, and did not drink very much in comparison with past times.

And I had previously had long stints of sobriety! If nothing else my last lapse two months ago really finally showed me I cannot do moderation. I am not saying never ever again but for now I view alcohol as something best avoided for a good few years, at the very least.

Day 63 :)