Things worth getting up at 5 am for

I used to wake up at 5 am for a lot of things.

To compete in my sport. To listen to bird song. To dance in the sunrise. To watch wildlife. To tend to a baby. To go on a protest march.

When I was drinking I woke  up at 5 am

To have a wee. To lie in bed sweating. To wake up and feel ashamed and worried and ill and not be able to get back to sleep. To check my computer and phone and try to undo the damage of drunk social media posts.

I used to sometimes lie in bed late, because I didn't see anything worth getting out of bed for. I felt so ashamed and unhappy and couldn't see the point in getting up. I did eventually, of course, and got on with my day but I was SO unhappy.

Today I woke up at 5 am, had a cup of tea, watched the sun rise and then washed, dressed and prepared for a busy working day.

Being sober, even miserably sober, beats any "so called" pleasure of drinking, hands down. No contest.

Day 20 today :)